Life to the fullest.

wpid-20131030_214253.jpgI’m not sure what it really is I want to write tonight… so I’ll just start typing… it’s been a while…

I’ve been distanced from my blog for a few weeks, wrapped up with work issues and the busyness of life. I’ve had an unexpected lull in work, the reasons for which I’m not going to divulge in this blog entry, but those closest to me will recognize the trials I allude to.

Sometimes it is very difficult to be different – to take a stand for what is right and to go against the grain. It is very much what I have been up against this month and I’ve been asking God why when I know that my heart is in the right place. More than that, I’ve been praying for the strength and wisdom to walk the right way and seek God in this confusion and to be the best me I can be. Sometimes, and especially this month, my “me” just hasn’t felt good enough for the status quo.

However, the question of why it’s happening is naive and juvenile. I recognize this even as I ask it and I realize that I’m not the only one who has faced opposition when doing the right thing. I’m not the only one who has suffered or hurt for telling the truth.

It’s difficult to tell the truth when it’s not what people want to hear. It’s also difficult to hear the truth and take it in when a person tells you. Both take courage.

But even in this trial I have sensed God with me. I am so grateful for some great coworkers, friends and family who know my character and know who I really am. I’m not perfect and I make mistakes all the time, but I’m trying…

I guess, what I want this blog post to be about is that you never know what someone is going through in their life. You can’t assume you know why they are acting in a certain way unless you ask and unless you inquire. I’m taking my current circumstances as stepping stones to a deeper life with Jesus and a growing experience. I know He has me right where I’m supposed to be. I know He is at work in my heart and in this situation. His love is so wide and so high and so deep. I’m taking the blind trust-fall backwards into His arms. Only he knows the outcome.

      Proverbs 3: 5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart
      and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways
      submit to him, and he will make your paths straight.

Walking by faith and not by sight is not always so simple

Beyond this trial, I see that my life is so full and my joy still over-flows because of God’s grace. I have so much to be grateful for and I want to be in a position where I can continue to serve others through my gifts of encouragement, writing and caring.

Trust fall… go…

It takes courage to listen… it takes courage to speak… sometimes, it feels like a mighty act of courage just to take one baby step forward.

If you need courage today, I hope this encouraged you and I pray you take refuge in God for greater peace. God grant us the serenity to accept the things we cannot change, the courage to change the things we can and the wisdom  to know the difference. Amen.


John 10:9-11

9 I am the gate; whoever enters through me will be saved. They will come in and go out, and find pasture.

10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.

11 “I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep.

Restoration journey.


I was never the girl who wanted… needed… a diamond ring. I never dreamed about a white knight or my wedding day. It wasn’t my number one girl-hood fantasy to be “swept off my feet.”

I just wanted love. Trust.

Proverbs 3: 5-6 Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways submit to Him and He will make your paths straight.


Chatham Lighthouse Beach, Massachusetts

I will trust God, I said.

I learned that men I cannot always trust.

Prince Charmings could be Prince Harmings in disguise, I saw.

I learned along the way, that yes, it’s true, even friends can break your trust.

And sometimes, no matter how well-intentioned people are, they will always fall-short.

No expectations of people.

Jesus is my standard.

All help is from the Lord.

I wanted a deep knowing that trust could exist and be sustained as I felt it to be perhaps the most blissful emotion of all human emotions. Trust, above love even, provides a rest in our human relationships. It makes us feel like we are always at home in safety and love.

Trust is a knowing that even if you fail… even if you make a mistake, stumble, or err, that the love and support will still be there to hold you. But trust is so easily shattered in human relationships.

Once broken in a relationship, we are scared.

We step back.

We turn away.

We defend, protect and run.

Darkness becomes more comfortable, because it is safer, or so we think.

Often, necessarily. Because turning away from a broken relationship or a broken past can also be vital to healing.

I’ve heard the metaphor that broken trust is akin to a crumpled piece of new, flat office paper. Once crumbled, folded and misshapen, it is impossible to return it to its original form – fresh, flat, new and untouched.

When someone hurts us or breaches our trust, it is the worst kind of pain. It is a pain so deep it seems that no light can ever reach that place. But with God all things are possible.

Seriously, I’m not just blowing fairy dust around.

Restoration is possible.

And it’s amazing!

Maybe the human relationship cannot be restored back to its original form, but the Lord longs to restore our souls back to love. Back to a place of trust. Back to home. God is searching everywhere for those whose hearts are pure.

Phillipians 4:13 I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. 

Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God. 2 Corinthians 1: 3-4

Be encouraged today if your trust has been broken.

Know that with man restoration is often impossible, but with God all things are possible.

Valerie Rumfelt

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