To begin again.


Hanging head

unfold my heart

reveal light to broken twisted parts

reach for the sinners lost in strife

pull them into more new life

refresh, renew, hearts turned to You

Faith leads away from confusion

Your love is real –

All else is illusion.

a war for souls

in the hearts of men

Jesus, help your people to begin again.


pleasure is a simple shift…

a cup of tea

a deep breath

a thankful prayer of gratitude

a snoring kitty

a knowing of hope

making room for more love

and only love.

accepting what is

what has been

and what is yet to come.

“Do not those who plot evil go astray? But those who plan what is good find love and faithfulness.” Proverbs 14:22


Simple (?) forgiveness.

A good message for a Monday, to clear any residue or debris.

Sometimes others hurt us. And sometimes we allow them to. And yes, sometimes we hurt others, consciously or not.

It’s a fragile dance – this life. A dance between loving, forgiving, yielding and interacting.

How can we soften what has been hardened?

How can we begin to bend freely to the whispers of forgiveness, making them an integral part of our daily life?

Those who life has hardened have buried their trust. Stuffing down any lingering “childish” fantasies in adulthood that life is anything but disappointing and people do not meet our expectations, we decide walls and grudges are more important than forgiveness.

Only a relationship with God can teach you where you could reach and where you can rest.

How far do you go?

Where do you go?

Forgiveness seems simple, but the work it takes to get there is not always simple.

It’s uncomfortable to let go of our opinions and judgement. It’s uncomfortable to hold pain, yet it’s uncomfortable to release it, also.

What are you holding today?

Are you ready to let go?

What would happen if you did?

What would happen, if, just on the inside, you said to your self, “I forgive ________ for ___________. And I also forgive myself for being hurt.”

True forgiveness takes place in the heart.

It always has.

Psalm 130

1 Out of the depths I cry to you, Lord;
2     Lord, hear my voice.
Let your ears be attentive
to my cry for mercy.

3 If you, Lord, kept a record of sins,
Lord, who could stand?
4 But with you there is forgiveness,
so that we can, with reverence, serve you.

5 I wait for the Lord, my whole being waits,
and in his word I put my hope.
6 I wait for the Lord
more than watchmen wait for the morning.

7 Israel, put your hope in the Lord,
for with the Lord is unfailing love
and with him is full redemption.
8 He himself will redeem Israel
from all their sins.


The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise,

as some understand slowness.

Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish,

but everyone to come to repentance.

2 Peter 3:9 


(Courtesy of Google images.)

the feet of a child trotting clumsily along the floor… falling, many times.

learning how to ride a bike.

recovering from brain injury.

learning a new language.

starting a new job.

beginning new relationships.

recovering from addictions.

changing careers.

learning to apologize, to listen and forgive.

learning to love.

learning to let go.

learning how to heal.

I thank God for His unfailing patience and love for humans today.

No matter how screwed up we are or get. He loves us and wants good for our lives.

Change is never easy.

Keeping aware.

“Every morning I spend fifteen minutes filling my mind full of God;

so there’s no room left for worry thoughts.”

– Howard Chandler Christy –


Dear Heavenly Father,

I am so thankful for your loving care.

Your provisions are sufficient for all my needs.

Keep me ever aware that I am Your child.


Courage to continue.

Yesterday I posted a photo and quote from poet and author Sylvia Plath. Today Plath was featured in an article on the National Alliance on Mental Illness Web site celebrating national poetry month and shedding light on some of Plath’s own struggles with depression and suicide attempts. 

Today, more than ever, we must ask for and embody full courage just to go to work, to teach in our schools, to speak in our places of employment against injustice, against confusion, against hate and slow, creeping neglect of our attitudes, or our mindsets, of the degree of compassion that we display to ourselves and others around us. 

Yesterday’s explosions at the Boston marathon, little more than an hour from our home, reminded me of how close chaos really can be and is becoming more of a reality in this country. Though no discoveries have been made yet on the origin of these explosions, whatever anyone says, they are acts of terror. They have instilled fear, dread and emotional, physical and spiritual injury. 

Besides the obvious loss of life and great human injury that has occurred here, the very sad part is that many will shrug their shoulders, rant to friends, say “What is wrong with people? What is wrong with the world?” and then continue on as if nothing happened.

We must wake up and pay attention to our world, to our community, to our lives and those of our family. Be sober-minded, be thankful for life and all that is good – stay focused.

We continue on unaffected after such grand tragedies or attacks because on some level we expect the chaos and the drama and the absolute dark dread that comes with living. Or the shock of the news is so great that we have to “shut off” our mind and not process the great catastrophe. Maybe (yes, I do) we feel powerless against such great negative force. We think that somehow these things are set apart from us… that we aren’t participating in the world. That, maybe, we have nothing to offer the world? Is there nothing we can do to increase love? Is there nothing we can do to protect ourselves and stay focused on what is good and right and just? 

Lord, I pray believers in Christ  and others to react sensitively to the good in the world, to celebrate the lightness and goodness of your being

even when evil seems to dominate

Let believers hold one another up…

let us always encourage one another to do what is right and to live rightly

Even when it’s unpopular

Let us look always for your face

Let us always seek the courage

and wisdom

to discern what is truly good

what is truly lasting

what truth will endure and has endured.

“Let no debt remain outstanding,

except the continuing debt to love one another,

for whoever loves others has fulfilled the law.” Romans 13:8 NIV 

When in doubt – believe.

In the midst of your doubts, don’t forget how many of the important questions God does answer.

– Verne Becker –


For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.  Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart. I will be found by you, declares the Lord, and will bring you back from captivity. Jeremiah 29:11-14


“Prodigal Son” song.

Luke 15:11-32

The Parable of the Lost Son

11 Jesus continued: “There was a man who had two sons. 12 The younger one said to his father, ‘Father, give me my share of the estate.’ So he divided his property between them.

13 “Not long after that, the younger son got together all he had, set off for a distant country and there squandered his wealth in wild living. 14 After he had spent everything, there was a severe famine in that whole country, and he began to be in need. 15 So he went and hired himself out to a citizen of that country, who sent him to his fields to feed pigs. 16 He longed to fill his stomach with the pods that the pigs were eating, but no one gave him anything.

17 “When he came to his senses, he said, ‘How many of my father’s hired servants have food to spare, and here I am starving to death! 18 I will set out and go back to my father and say to him: Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. 19 I am no longer worthy to be called your son; make me like one of your hired servants.’ 20 So he got up and went to his father.

“But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and was filled with compassion for him; he ran to his son, threw his arms around him and kissed him.

21 “The son said to him, ‘Father, I have sinned against heaven and against you. I am no longer worthy to be called your son.’

22 “But the father said to his servants, ‘Quick! Bring the best robe and put it on him. Put a ring on his finger and sandals on his feet. 23 Bring the fattened calf and kill it. Let’s have a feast and celebrate.24 For this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’ So they began to celebrate.

25 “Meanwhile, the older son was in the field. When he came near the house, he heard music and dancing. 26 So he called one of the servants and asked him what was going on. 27 ‘Your brother has come,’ he replied, ‘and your father has killed the fattened calf because he has him back safe and sound.’

28 “The older brother became angry and refused to go in. So his father went out and pleaded with him.29 But he answered his father, ‘Look! All these years I’ve been slaving for you and never disobeyed your orders. Yet you never gave me even a young goat so I could celebrate with my friends. 30 But when this son of yours who has squandered your property with prostitutes comes home, you kill the fattened calf for him!’

31 “‘My son,’ the father said, ‘you are always with me, and everything I have is yours. 32 But we had to celebrate and be glad, because this brother of yours was dead and is alive again; he was lost and is found.’”

On healing and pain… not so pretty.

A few weeks ago a sister in Christ and mentor dropped an Oswald Chambers quote about living with grace on one of my post’s here… “Grace… is knowing there is at least one thing you don’t know about in another persons life.”

I’ve thought of this quote as I’ve been moving through my fairly new job, my dealings with my family members, growing up with my peers, working with my co-workers and integrating into a new family system thanks to marrying my amazing husband. How can I live a more graceful life? Or better yet, how can I gracefully move away from disgraceful situations? Some things  and dealings in life are so ungracious and have been so ungracious that I am finding it really difficult to deal with them and to move through them…

As I have reflected on this, I keep hearing that I don’t really have to do anything besides accept God’s own grace in my life. This is really contrary to what I really want to do though, which would be my nature to help, mend, fix and correct or to just totally vent and yell about the situation!  I am starting to see how truly gracious God is to fulfill our need for mercy and grace in these difficult moments of life. But we have to go to Him for the grace!

So a few days ago I wrote about patience, too… I think patience is kind of like grace because they both involve forbearance. A waiting period!


“Patience is more than endurance. A saint’s life is in the hands of God like a bow and arrow in the hands of an archer. God is aiming at something the saint cannot see, and He stretches and strains, and every now and again the saint says–‘I cannot stand anymore.’ God does not heed, He goes on stretching till His purpose is in sight, then He lets fly. Trust yourself in God’s hands. Maintain your relationship to Jesus Christ by the patience of faith. ‘Though He slay me, yet will I trust in Him.” – Oswald Chambers –

Info on Oswald Chambers found here: 

Oswald Chambers was not famous during his lifetime. At the time of his death in 1917 at the age of forty-three, only three books bearing his name had been published. Among a relatively small circle of Christians in Britain and the U.S., Chambers was much appreciated as a teacher of rare insight and expression, but he was not widely known.

Chambers was born in Aberdeen, Scotland, in 1874, the youngest son of a Baptist minister. He spent his boyhood years in Perth; then his family moved to London when Oswald was fifteen. Shortly after the move to London, Oswald made his public profession of faith in Christ and became a member of Rye Lane Baptist Church. This marked a period of rapid spiritual growth, along with an intense struggle to find God’s will and way for his life.


I am after God’s heart right now and am really doing my best (at least I think, for the moment!) to hear him and heal from the past, but it has not always been easy. It’s not always easy when you encounter the same ungracious situations or relationships and really have to question your purpose in all of it. Must my heart continue to break? What if healing never comes?  So, I think this final quote by Chambers kind of sums it up.

“If through a broken heart God can bring His purposes to pass in the world, then thank Him for breaking your heart.” – Oswald Chambers –

I am thanking God for my broken heart and the times in the past when my heart was broken. For surely he was saving me and preparing me for something better.

And I thank God for ungracious circumstances and ungracious people in my life, for surely it is there and in those moments where I need to go and seek after God’s grace and freely receive it, surrendering all to Him. I think of all the times when I have been ungracious, unforgiving, unyielding and stubborn and I think, maaaaaaan, this really is some AMAZING grace.



Steady heart.

In (Jesus Christ) we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace. Ephesians 1:7


Hebrews 12

12 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God. Consider him who endured such opposition from sinners, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart.

God never fails.

He doesn’t lie.

It’s not a part of his character.

Where there is confusion there is not peace.

Take refuge in His perfect peace today.

Take heart. Take courage.



Peace ❤

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